Lingering Thoughts

So im averaging 1 blog a month which pretty bad considering when i started blogging again i said: "i wont just blog just once a month" so in the upcoming weeks i will try to change that n blog a lil more if feel like i have something worth blogging about. I don't know where to start at, but i guess i can with my "paid headaches" AKA my job. I'm grateful i have a job and back to making some decent income but as with anything, it has its drawbacks n things i dislike. 10hr shifts aint NO type of joke but gotta work hard to play harder so "money is the motive" One thing is this job is gonna be able to do is finally get the fuck out of Tampa for a weekend (at least) I really need a change of scenery and to be in a different environment. Everybody who will listen knows im ready to move live else where,hopefully out of state. Ive never been in one place as long as ive been here (8yrs in aug) i've feel like its been that long. BUT, for now, i will happily take a weekend n get out here....& i dam sure planning on making that happen in march.....so in other news... ((i couldn't think of a good transition)) this single life thing is getting really boring. But with that being said i kno i have to patience and all that good stuff but i am ready to share have some type of MUTUAL interest beyond a physical level.....mental stimulation...but that reminds to be seen, keywords being mutual & mental stimulation.... mayb im closer to that, idk, but i do know this... i do love Louisiana accents....who dat! ...... (u kno i had to get Saints reference in here) One thing i can say is i do feel like that things are moving in the right direction overall for me at this point and i hope it stays that way and keep a positive mind frame.

“The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen.”- Ralph Marston

The Great Debate (sort of)

Other than religion, there is only one other thing I can think of (right now) that brings up so many wide range of emotions, thoughts & opinions: Relationships. Just even reading that word you immediately feel some type of way, positive, negative or in a lot of cases I’m noticing, somewhere in between. From what I’ve observed, there are three “types”

You have “the positive outlook” of a fresh start, new person, all the possibilities and the nervous excitement of the journey going forward. Having a companion to share & bond with and all the other mushy stuff you can think of that comes along with.

Or there is “the pessimistic thinker” who thinks everyone is out to make them look like a fool, lying, going to cheat or the popular pessimistic response he/she “just like everybody else.” If the sky where to fall, it would fall directly on them and somehow, it would be you or their ex’s fault (the more people to blame the better)

Then there is the crowd that’s somewhere in between, or a mixture… the “I don’t know” …and their opinions no matter how wide or narrow, reasonable or not, you will here two things: there is ALWAYS a “but” somewhere no matter what, it ends with the “I don’t know”

Now let me make it clear not everyone fits into one of the three categories, (duh) these are just what I’m noticing is most common. There are also deeper reasons than the ones I mentioned to why a person would feel ANY type of way but you should get the point. Being single to me is only cool when your just getting out of a relationship or you hear your friends bitching about their significant other or problems and u think to yourself “I’m glad not going through that shit” (or is that just me?) Other than that being single has its funs moments and peace and quiet (Amen) but eventually at some point leads back to search for that person of a lifetime (or the moment) What I think a lot of folks need to get over is the fact that they got hurt/could get hurt again. You can also walk outside, & bust ya ass & fall down the stairs too. But that don’t stop you from going down the steps. You’re just aware and cautious you could fall. Similar concept with dealing with the opposite sex in my opinion. With the way a lot of males/females talk you would think it was a middle school dance and the boys & girls stood on opposite sides of gym floor in little groups, whispering pointing and laughing about the boy/girl, not sure of what they should do. Pessimistic people are always speaking of the past & what did happened/or what could/might happened. The worst will always occur if u leaves it up to these mofos. Which is fine, but I wish people like that would just got sit in a dam corner Indian style by themselves and rock back and forward quietly. Every situation is treated like a fire drill & since their running scared they wanna make sure they “save” your ass as well. Now you scared running for nothing too, juss because. Be aware of the vibe you keep around you because that goes a long way & most people don’t even realize. (that’s for another blog) I’m not sitting writing this telling you to run around with open arms because everyone does not has the best intentions or interest at hand (use ya common sense if u got some) Take a moment in think about where your mindset is closest to. Give yourself a chance to mayb,just maybe be happy. Hey, You never know. We all don’t

At the moment

i blog about whatever comes to mind and tonight reading some tweets tonight (and really everyday for that matter) i always notice that people spend a great deal of time thinkin about the past. Neither its reflecting on a situation, reminiscing about a song they here/herd....trending topics on twitter, or something that occurred in the past that preventing them moving forward now (most common from of this is dealing with the opposite sex) Now let me this clear, if you don't learn from your past your going to make the same mistakes..and that will make it twice as hard to progress(ur going to make mistakes regardless so don't worry, you will juss make more) So looking back and reflecting on things that happened is a necessary process. Blocking it out is only a temporally release because eventually it will catch up to you most times. so how ever u deal with it ( assuming you are not crazy) take the time out to do that. But after u have done that, Let it go. Learn from it, and advance. I don't understand how some people are so caught in the past and what happened that they wont allow them selfs to be happy now. There is nothing any of us can do about the past.(i was told time machines don't exist when i wanted to rent one) Another thing is taking so much time to look back, you not pay attention to the present...the moment...the RIGHT NOW!! People (and by people i include myself in this as well) don't give our selfs (or each for the most part) a enough credit. we are looking back or looking forward to what next or better days (the recession didn't help, thanks Bush) that we don't even enjoy right now. For all me and you both know we could both be dead in the next 5 seconds (don't worry we will be fine) Enjoy the moment! i know that easier said than done when bills are due, u dealing with a bullshit job and/or school or lookin for a job. People trippin and pissin you off...it very easy to not appreciate right now. Despite all that shit, juss u have made THIS far. There alot of people who didn't. That in my opinion that is good enough reason to smile n enjoy wherever point u may be at. The future is coming regardless if we here for it or not, so all u can do is plan, and work hard to be prepared for it. The past is juss that your past.Enjoy the NOW . Enjoy life(you only get one apparently). Hopefully you will come to realize that your life or situation isn't that bad and the saying "it could be worse" is a very accurate statement....and as with anything....the choice is yours. You can be paranoid and unhappy if choose. (take that energy and attitude far away from me please) I'll leave you with a quote.....

"One day at a time--this is enough.do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone;and do not be troubled about the future,for it has not yet come. Live in the present,and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering"

While You were sleepling... (the prelude)

“A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.”

And so the 1st step begins. Ive been saying i was gonna to start writing a blog and getting some of views out here to share with others (and mostly out of my own head) and after putting it off forever,Tonight i finally decided to stop bullshiting and make a blog. My 1st thought was to wait till the beginning of the new year to start but i figured, there no time like the present and as my momma likes to always say, "dont put things for tomorrow what u can do today" (or in my case, insomnia) So here i am writing my 1st blog. People have asked me what will i write about and my answer to that is: Everything!There are no limits or boundaries and with everything u will ever see coming from me, it will be from the heart n truthful (hence Truthful Ink) You may not always agree with i might say n thats fine (im saying "you" cuz im assuming someone will give a dam to read, meaning YOU,get it? nvm lol ) but i can only tell it from what i have been through, learned, & experienced. theres more 2 me than a 140 characters on twitter could capture or a profile page of on facebook could explain. I feel like i am truly a unique individual (not juss on a "about me" section) and i hate to be boxed with "all" or "everyone" (two of the most commonly miss used used words ever) So ima speak for my dam self. I have a functional brain and intend to use it. I seek Knowledge, wisdom, & understanding & equality for all. I'll never sit and act like i know everything because i don't so i hope to learn from everybody i encounter. Hopefully forthcoming blogs will give u a insight to who i am as a person (oh-uh) and mayb help some1 along the way. i look foward to reading everyone else blogs to see what makes you tick. So tonight (or,today,or this morning lol) the journey begins...with the 1st step...or in this case, the 1st blog lol.